Shadow Work

Picture this: A room full of accomplished executives. People who run companies, lead teams, manage complexity for a living. And all of us, every single one, quietly undone by a question about something we have been carrying since childhood, but don’t even know truly what that “shadow” is.

A few weeks ago, I attended my annual YPO (Young Presidents’ Organization) Forum retreat. We had a facilitator trained in shadow work. I will be honest. I had no idea what I was walking into. Hard doesn’t begin to cover it. But it was also one of the most meaningful experiences I have had in a long time. What a gift.

What came out of those days was something I had been searching for, for a while. It might sound silly coming from an accomplished executive. But I needed to find my voice. Not performing it. Not polishing it. Actually, finding it, messy and imperfect as it is.

So, What Exactly Is Shadow Work?

Most of us have heard of the shadow self, but few of us have actually met it; not formally, anyway.

The shadow self is everything that is not fully integrated with the conscious part of who we are: the repressed fears, the buried desires, the parts of ourselves we learned to hide in order to fit in, be loved, or be accepted. Jungian psychotherapist Robert Johnson described it as, “a type of secondary personality that emerges under certain conditions.” Sound familiar? That version of you that shows up under stress, pressure, or sudden change. That’s your shadow.

Shadow work is the process of going in to meet that part of yourself. It requires compassion, patience, and a willingness to release control. Yup…I said it. Not be in control. Yikes. None of which, by the way, come naturally to most high-achieving leaders.

Carl Jung, the Swiss psychiatrist who introduced the concept, called shadow work, “the path of the heart warrior.” I would say that tracks.

Three Things I Learned in That Room

I walked away from that retreat with more than I expected. But three things in particular have stayed with me:

1. You can rehearse perfection forever, or you can find your voice. Not both.

Leadership has a way of rewarding the polished version of us…the prepared answer, the confident delivery, the managed image. Shadow work asks for something different. It asks what is true, not what is impressive. I spent a lot of time in that room realizing how much energy I had been investing in getting the presentation right and how little I had spent just speaking honestly.

2. The stories written in childhood have a way of running the show long after we think we have outgrown them.

We don’t arrive as adults from nowhere. Something or someone (or both) shaped us. And most of us never stop to ask what. The patterns we carry into boardrooms, into relationships, into the way we lead, many of them were written by a much younger version of us, trying to survive. Until you can see the pattern, you cannot choose differently. Shadow work helps you finally see it. That is a gift. What you do with it next is up to you.

3. Find the people who love you enough to be honest with you. They are rare, and they are everything.

This one kept surfacing through all of it. We also worked through a life plan for the year. Five areas of focus. A personal affirmation attached to each area of focus and three real goals that go with it. And through every piece of it, this question sat with me: who in your life tells you the truth? Not to wound you. Not to manage you. But because they genuinely see you and want more for you than comfort. Those people are worth everything.

The Wondering

Shadow work isn’t a single retreat or a weekend exercise. It’s a practice. And it often starts with the simplest, most uncomfortable questions. The ones we have been brushing past for years.

Here are a few to sit with:

• Is your inner voice truly yours? Or is it someone else’s voice you have internalized?
• Where are you playing small in your life?
• Have you ever sacrificed a part of yourself to fit in?
• What is the thing you have been most afraid to say aloud, even to yourself?

Most of us are living out an old script. Shadow work is how you find out who wrote it.

The Exercise (Give It 5 Minutes)

Grab a notebook. Not your phone, not a laptop. Something that requires your handwriting and slows you down. Then complete these sentences without overthinking:

• The emotion I most avoid feeling is…
• The story I keep telling myself about who I am is…
• If I could tell my younger self only one thing, it would be…
• The part of myself I keep in the dark is…

Don’t edit. Don’t polish. Just notice what shows up. That is where the work begins. And, if you are really serious about doing the hard work. Find someone trained in shadow work to coach. It could change your entire perspective on life moving forward.

My Intention

I came home from that retreat different. Not fixed. I want to be clear about that. But more awake to the patterns I had been carrying on autopilot. More curious about what I have been hiding, and why.

My intention going forward is to keep asking the questions that feel uncomfortable. To stop rehearsing the polished answer and start listening for the honest one. To find, and keep finding, my actual voice.

I hope you will wonder with me.

With curiosity,

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